The Princess In Me : )

While the all famous line goes as-“ It’s really difficult to understand girls. You never know what they are up to.”

True it is. Sometimes, I don’t even understand a single word I said or rather sometimes it’s tough to explain others what I need to say. Not that my communication skill has degraded but sometimes, I wish there were people who understood my silence. Most of us wish so. 

When I enter my home after a long tiring day-Mom understands the silence and doesn’t query. Rather there would be a glass of cold water to make me calm down, forget whole “Terrible” thing about the day. Instead when  I reach home after a long journey, if only my bro is home-he won’t even admire my presence, leave alone the water thing. That has happened all through these years and is a habit now.  Although I know, he cares enough as seen from his viewpoint. He cares when my exams were on my head and he knew that his sister is so busy watching television that she has skipped her chapters  J. He cares when he knows I might not pass in a particular test and waits for my result as he waits for his. I, on the other hand, woke up at 6 am on his CBSE result and slept again before he told me his result as he already explained each and every question to me and I was so sure of his result. Though the anxiety and expectations are always high.

Suddenly talking about my family, I didn’t think to write over this. My hands just did so. May be September always makes me miss them more.

Talking about the silence to be understood, there have been infinite instances in anyone’s life where their silence has been misunderstood. I have friends who are actually great at being silent. They don’t make fuss of a thing, remain calm during each situation and are great. 

When I tried to do the same –

1.I n School- they called me Geek. I was a T.V. freak though.

2. In College- They (N-11) knew I was going mad and crazy inside and thus, there was always get together in my room –(Courtesy Apoorva Sogani, Khushboo Sinha, Ratika Talwar, Manisha Sangwan and Pooja Bharagav, Akanksha Saxena,EC-batch and everyone who knew me well)  And the topic of discussion was –How to torture me. They used to torture-still do the same-take out all the secrets and then would ask me to IGNORE J And, it was always worked.

3. At Office- Have been extra silent during training. Most people noticed as they knew the reason behind. Have started mingling up. I wonder people might tag me as weird in days to come.

Just a few instances of being misunderstood or well understood. Obviously, we cannt make everyone understand . So, Let it go.

The thing is each one of us (Talking about girls in general, I have no idea about guys,they are weird perhaps-NO OFFENCE) wants to have friends, soul mate and family who understands them, make them feel valuable, admire them, forgets their mistakes or loves them inspite of the weird person they are. 

I have always loved “Jab We Met” as I could always find the Perfect guy in Aditya and Miss imperfect in Geet. Kareena was awesome in the movie I would say. The blabbering  which sounded funny, makes you smile and a few dialogues which makes you ponder-“ Tum toh bahut serious the na life main…”.

Probably, everyone of us seeks for a perfect life patner.  

Probably, there are only a few lucky ones who find one.

Probably, there are a few who find but are never able to say so or recognize it.

Sometimes, all we need is a person who listens to our non stop talks, makes sense out of nowhere, knows the difference between your happy and sad voice,knows the innocent person behind you and the bitchy one too and probably is there for you during your most critical times.

All you need is a little courage to understand what your heart wants you to follow. To be true enough, I still don't know it. Perhaps, I'm more dependent on my destiny now.But, somewhere deep down-I still believe in those fairy tales which said-"Mr. Perfect/Prince Charming" exists.

Perhaps, every girl believes herself to be a Princess. At least, I do!!!! 

9/11

How a tremendously large city which is famous for its life,show and pomp suddenly is on fire. 9/11 is not just about the loss of glory but it's a tremendous loss of lives,innocent souls and the trust of being safe.

Its 9/11 year after year and it completes a decade. Still nothing fades away, though it isn't visible.
I still recall, I was in 7th Standard and the big news of 9/11 attack was flashing all over the television.The biggest and the most vital attacks ever. It's 10 years and whenever I sit back and think-I'm horrified at the pain, agony and loneliness of those who lost  their loved ones.

Although it seemed like another Sunday to me! But, somewhere deep down, we all know it's a BLACK DAY.Hope the people who lost their lives RIP and may their loved ones have the patience to bear the pain and move on.

9/11 definitely changed so many lives, shocked so many and terrorized everyone.Who knows the next lane I'm walking is safe or not. Probably " A Wednesday "  was made recognizing this fear.
Let us all fight this fear.
Amen

"Name Sake"

It's going to be 3 months in the city. And the city is yet very new to me. Unfamiliar I would say. The credit does go to my laziness. The companions are now just the Laptop and my Cell phone.
Well,perhaps nobody in the world have the power to replace the love you have for your gadgets.
 Of course they keep you connected very well. Rightly said- "  Connecting People ".  Not just it represents NOKIA but it states  a true reality about the cell phones and WWW.

Relating to the Techy insight- I had always wanted an iPhone & Apple's Macintosh but since the very day I heard Steve Jobs resigning as the CEO of APPLE.
 Suddenly, the desire to be one the Apple's customer died. I wonder -Did it just happened for me or many others felt the same way.Not that any of Apple's products got degraded in one night but the charisma to have them just vanished. I did find out that the share markets dropped by 7% by mere hearing the news of Steve resigning.
Actually,it's not a big deal for many around me. Some of them still don't know who STEVE JOBS is. But,the news did come as a shock to me.

I have been hearing of his ill health from Jan. 2011. And on Thursday morning, when I entered office and as any other day opened the news coloumn-the whole e-news had "  ANNA HAZARE"   all over it. I scrolled down as usual as I'm not very fond of reading everything-and there came the shocking news.
Felt as if 2 min. of silence had occured. I couldn't believe and couldn't react.Flipped the pages from  TOI to The Hindu to The Wall Street to the Economic Times.
 Found the person I have admired so much saying- "   I have always said if there ever came a day when I could no longer meet my duties and expectations as Apple’s CEO, I would be the first to let you know. Unfortunately, that day has come. I hereby resign as CEO of Apple. I would like to serve, if the Board sees fit, as Chairman of the Board, director and Apple employee."

Apple has become a brand so famous that even the slighest news engrosses attention.
Coming to the term -" BRAND"  .
Although I don't need to explain but here it goes-
From Nokia, Samsung, HTC, APPLE, Ericsson and so many more to HP, Dell ,Lenovo(Although I personally never liked the lappy's texture :P)...to Britannia,ITC Ltd.,McDonalds, Dominos to Puma,Cantabil,Raymonds,Woodland...MIcrosoft,Facebook, Google,IBM and so many.
Even if you  know nothing about the entire mnc and still it's famous- "  yaar!!jo bhi bol naam hai company ka."
Have myself spoke these lines, I don't know how many times.
Certainly, believed them too. But, on a broader front -it takes years to be known for-years to reach the list of the Top Brands.

And we, the normal people because of whom these brands are making money end up running after them- either buying the gadgets,admiring them, wishing to be one of their owners and certainly many of us ending up working for them. All these atleast very true for a person like me.

They say- MONEY and FAME is a man's best buddies.They give you every possible materialistic comfort and many a times take away all the peace. Still, we end up seeking pleasure only after we make the hell of our peaceful life.Making me understand that ->

1.Money is really costly.
 It takes years to actually become a rich person.(From Experience).

2. We all desire for FAME.
But, the more famous we are-the more onerous is the task.

3.All we need is a peaceful life.
I have felt this in college specially during 7th sem.
I still recall talking to my Dad over the phone and uttering-
"  Sleep is the most important thing in this life. If I can't have a sound sleep, what's the use of achieving all what I have and working for it mercilessly day and night."
And actually, have started feeling that way too.

4.Do what you actually love And if it's not possible start Loving what you do.
Nothing in the world can satisfy humans. But, the above lines might help.

I have understood the power a Brand Name has and perhaps has ended me where I' m today.Still figuring out was it worthy enough.

Journeys!!

They begin,they end.
And they begin again.
Solace they do provide,
Sometimes give a place to hide.
We meet ,we part
but that meeting on the way just gives the glory,
and the smiles do last.

In these long years of existence,
journeys have been troubling,
bothering and long.
I ponder time and again,
what I recall is just the happy frames.




The butterflies amidst the traffic lights,
I picturize, smile and walk away.
The clouds which often go from blue to Grey,
It rains but the rainbows still hiding midway.
The hustle-bustle of the busy world.
doesn't Spare my time for me.
Again it's just the journeys,
May be memories down the lane.




One life for a million wishes,
or million wishes for one life,
We dream,desire and hope.
We act,succeed and move on.


With mild thoughts,
walking on the way,
Each morning has it's own tale.
I know it's mine.
My treasure -my fame.
My space-my name.
Will last with me,
Surreal but true.
As I go along,
Letting me the way I am and will be.

 

"Choices Have Their PAYOFFs"

Recently during the training session, I got to hear this phrase which goes as follows-
"   Choices have their PAY OFFS"   .

As all other things this didn't sound so attractive, but within a gap of 5 distinguished minutes I could understand each and everything around me.I seriously don't know how many of us realize this thing-but It's just a matter of what I chose and what I didn't.

From the very beginning of a human life,we start to make choices from " I like chocolates to I hate summers"  .Everything is perfectly planned.Recently the phrase above has become the motivation of the recent activities and livelihood.
A few days back each and every question which used to be-" Why the hell am I stuck here?"   has an answer because you chose it.
Wouldn't  it be wonderful if we knew what will be the result of a particular choice we make-Talking unrealistic and stupid perhaps.

To see a wider view of everything around when we begin to make decisions -the first thing which should go hand in hand is " respect to your own decision"  . But the reality is a bit different.
When I choose, I somehow lose. And sometimes, the choices are  life-threatening-They sometimes take away the most precious assets you have ever had.Still a man without mistakes wouldn't be termed a real human!! Payoffs are simply a gesture to know what are you leaving behind. And we humans realize it late.
They say NEVER ASSUME - as assume stands for " ASS U ME" .
Never Assume that every choice is right nor is every choice wrong.It's probably how we deal with it.

I read the following lines on Mani's Facebook and loved them-
"I didn't ask for it to be over, but then again, I didn't ask for it to begin. For that's the way this is life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets."
Life is a comedy.The more you laugh with it-the better it turns out.It's almost 50 days here. Every other day I wake up and think it's going to be a better day this morning. Some days are horrible, some are just the simple days without obstructions and still waiting for the perfect happy days to turn up.
Suddenly flashing is "  Konkana Sen's "   image in Wake Up Sid--
New girl in the City--still trying to get into the new shoes although they sometimes pain a lot. Lets see how it turns out.

With another blissful morning and rains washing all the left overs,Looking forward for another chunk of story.

Chitranshi

Life after college !!!

So, while I left writing a few months ago, finally the urge to write again brings me up here again.

"Am I really graduating?"   I have felt this more often than have I written it.

And, somewhere deep I know everyone of us feels this.While those last days of filling up diaries & pen downing memories have already ended. Whenever I think over, I just get a feeling that it’s another vacation added to the last 4 years.  While I remember those getting up early in order to reach classes on time during 1^st year, making assignments and EG sheets , dozing off in those extra boring lectures, enjoying a few of the classes, Lab hours which created all my social contacts on orkut  n Facebook of which I suppose just FB  has lasted this long.

When EC- CD happened, it never appealed to me that it would be an integral part of me. Every morning when I wake up these days, there are no calls to Siny or Isha to cancel classes. There are no more dozing hours during lectures, no more study breaks during chit-chat hours. I kind of miss those classes and specially the parts which lead us to the “ Cafeteria”. Lately, just dreamt of being in college and ended in the Café meeting everyone. Sometimes, dreams  do take you a world of your own.

Coming back to hours spent at Sharma Treat- with tea or specially Coffee for me!! , shopping and even taking pictures at LS . J  Just roaming about the college with friends . Today, when  I sit idle at home, I think I even enjoyed those work hours at hostel.

Missing  @Mani a lot, “Ab mujhe VD  download kar ke kaun dega.” Khushi was right I suppose in this case. J There were never any dull hours while our N-11 was together and specially b’coz Appu would come and laugh at every expression I gave or every word I said. I miss those countless hours Khushi had spent to make Appu understand what I was trying to say. Missing Rati and her teasing hours too L.

There are lots of moments from-classes, assignments,  Ppts,  Emft  n Economics k bunk hours :P!! Just letting you know- that

@Manisha aka mani aka maniya :- will really miss the latest updates & ofcourse the great downloads!

@Khushi- already missing your numerous treats, tera assignment karna, humesha class k time sote rehna lol  & ofcourse being my intermediater :P

@RAti aka Rats Aka Ratika- missing those naughty comments & lazy you :P, those long walks at night n those hours at C’mon room.

@Apoorva aka Appu aka Aps- Missing our long …no no very very long chats!! Tujhe ping krna-“Kya kar rahi hai.” Tujhe new movies and Korean shows dikhana :P I miss you specially when I wake up –kyunki ab tu roz subah uthati ni hai na L. And specially the" WTF –Where’s the food” hours!!

Ending up here, Senti hone k mann ni hai aaj.

Missing everyone,

Yours Chittu aka Chi2 aka C2

Let it be my way!!

When I first looked at this picture, it did appeal to me a lot.

But, to be really frank -my first thoughts regarding this piece of work was the similar and most often thought of -" a regular journey of a common man."  And at some point of time, yes it is a regular journey of a common man-who has been working days and nights for his/her livelihood, lost in their own thoughts as if continuously living a monotonous life. Every morning when he opens his eyes after a sound sleep, comes back to his senses is a list of duties and responsibilities. Perhaps, all of us might have seen someone working in a similar fashion around.

So, it's a part of a day in a common man's life.

But on a second thought, it just reminded me of  a destination followed by many of us. No, I am not referring to the Metro but the same old route which everyone takes up to go.

On a stage which actually I have been through and have seen too, people have a tendency to flow with the mass. When I refer a metro, it saves time and fuel-efficient. Every one accommodates his/her place to have a secure and safe journey. People on the way, might be of jolly or serious nature, but on an individual basis everyone is pacing up to get their respective goals. Doesn't that seem a much known trend followed??

We get the calculated response-- >

Q. What do you want to be?

A. ( A well prepared ans.) Engineer, Doctor or may be something which again follows the so called  " Trend".

I don't say that everyone does that or rather everyone does that knowingly. But, my whole and sole point is that everyone has a friendly gesture towards the things which can be done at ease.

Why would anyone, as a matter of fact, be the cause of his/her own misery?

Still amidst the crowd you would witness in a local compartment of a local train, you might actually be overwhelmed to see a person willingly offer his seat to someone really in need of one.

Although, we all are in the same lane moving ahead to a brighter future, somehow, somewhere exists in all of us a desire to be different, yet travelling in the same followed path.

But, when the path is more travelled, there is a wider hope of getting to a destination which is known  and  explored.

But with technology, comes a way to reach and develop our own paths and destination.

I hope someday, each one of us, gets there happily.

In spite of the thousands of people travelling, amidst them I might be the one still wondering

which path to follow and rather what really is my destination ?

If even you have witnessed such a situation, join me to say- "  What if it's a familiar lane, I can still turn it my way."

When I first looked at this picture, it did appeal to me a lot.

But, to be really frank -my first thoughts regarding this piece of work was the similar and most often thought of -" a regular journey of a common man."  And at some point of time, yes it is a regular journey of a common man-who has been working days and nights for his/her livelihood, lost in their own thoughts as if continuously living a monotonous life. Every morning when he opens his eyes after a sound sleep, comes back to his senses is a list of duties and responsibilities. Perhaps, all of us might have seen someone working in a similar fashion around.

So, it's a part of a day in a common man's life.

But on a second thought, it just reminded me of  a destination followed by many of us. No, I am not referring to the Metro but the same old route which everyone takes up to go.

On a stage which actually I have been through and have seen too, people have a tendency to flow with the mass. When I refer a metro, it saves time and fuel-efficient. Every one accommodates his/her place to have a secure and safe journey. People on the way, might be of jolly or serious nature, but on an individual basis everyone is pacing up to get their respective goals. Doesn't that seem a much known trend followed??

We get the calculated response-- >

Q. What do you want to be?

A. ( A well prepared ans.) Engineer, Doctor or may be something which again follows the so called  " Trend".

I don't say that everyone does that or rather everyone does that knowingly. But, my whole and sole point is that everyone has a friendly gesture towards the things which can be done at ease.

Why would anyone, as a matter of fact, be the cause of his/her own misery?

Still amidst the crowd you would witness in a local compartment of a local train, you might actually be overwhelmed to see a person willingly offer his seat to someone really in need of one.

Although, we all are in the same lane moving ahead to a brighter future, somehow, somewhere exists in all of us a desire to be different, yet travelling in the same followed path.

But, when the path is more travelled, there is a wider hope of getting to a destination which is known  and  explored.

But with technology, comes a way to reach and develop our own paths and destination.

I hope someday, each one of us, gets there happily.

In spite of the thousands of people travelling, amidst them I might be the one still wondering

which path to follow and rather what really is my destination ?

If even you have witnessed such a situation, join me to say- "  What if it's a familiar lane, I can still turn it my way."

When I first looked at this picture, it did appeal to me a lot.

But, to be really frank -my first thoughts regarding this piece of work was the similar and most often thought of -" a regular journey of a common man."  And at some point of time, yes it is a regular journey of a common man-who has been working days and nights for his/her livelihood, lost in their own thoughts as if continuously living a monotonous life. Every morning when he opens his eyes after a sound sleep, comes back to his senses is a list of duties and responsibilities. Perhaps, all of us might have seen someone working in a similar fashion around.

So, it's a part of a day in a common man's life.

But on a second thought, it just reminded me of  a destination followed by many of us. No, I am not referring to the Metro but the same old route which everyone takes up to go.

On a stage which actually I have been through and have seen too, people have a tendency to flow with the mass. When I refer a metro, it saves time and fuel-efficient. Every one accommodates his/her place to have a secure and safe journey. People on the way, might be of jolly or serious nature, but on an individual basis everyone is pacing up to get their respective goals. Doesn't that seem a much known trend followed??

We get the calculated response-- >

Q. What do you want to be?

A. ( A well prepared ans.) Engineer, Doctor or may be something which again follows the so called  " Trend".

I don't say that everyone does that or rather everyone does that knowingly. But, my whole and sole point is that everyone has a friendly gesture towards the things which can be done at ease.

Why would anyone, as a matter of fact, be the cause of his/her own misery?

Still amidst the crowd you would witness in a local compartment of a local train, you might actually be overwhelmed to see a person willingly offer his seat to someone really in need of one.

Although, we all are in the same lane moving ahead to a brighter future, somehow, somewhere exists in all of us a desire to be different, yet travelling in the same followed path.

But, when the path is more travelled, there is a wider hope of getting to a destination which is known  and  explored.

But with technology, comes a way to reach and develop our own paths and destination.

I hope someday, each one of us, gets there happily.

In spite of the thousands of people travelling, amidst them I might be the one still wondering

which path to follow and rather what really is my destination ?

If even you have witnessed such a situation, join me to say- "  What if it's a familiar lane, I can still turn it my way."