SOMEONE'S WATCHING OVER ME..

Today,while listening to the below listed song i just fall deeply in love with it....nd ya it made me realise i        too have someone watching me over,......thank GOD ..HE gave us parents...missing home..

SONG BY HILIARY DUFF

I found myself today,

Oh I found myself and ran away,

something pulled me back,

Voice of reason I forgot I had,

All I know is your not here to say,

What you always used to say,

But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up,

no I won't break down,

sooner than it seems life turns around,

and I will be strong

even if it all goes wrong,

when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe,

someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light,

and it's shining on my destiny

shining all the time

and I won't be afraid

to follow everywhere it's taking me

all I know is yesterday is gone

and right now I belong

to this moment, to my dreams

So I won't give up,

no I wont' break down,

sooner than it seems life turns around,

and I will be strong

even if it all goes wrong

when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

someone's watching over me

BRIDGE what does it mean

It doesn't matter what people say

and it doesn't matter how long it takes

believe in yourself and you'll fly, high,

and it only matters how true you are

be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up,

no I wont' break down,

sooner than it seems life turns around,

and I will be strong

even if it all goes wrong

when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe...

That I won't give up,

no I wont' break down,

sooner than it seems life turns around,

and I will be strong

even when it all goes wrong

when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe....

that someone's watching over

someone's watching over

someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me...

You came and never left...

With the small gifts life bestowed on me,

you are the one i value the most.

With those thousand's of voices i keep hearing,

you are  the one whom i love to hear.

When everything seems to be wrong,

you are  the only hope i have.

When everything seems dark,

you are the one who guides my way.

With those moments when you are near,

life seems to be technicolor.

With each wish i ask for,

its you, whose well-being i care.

When I lay down at night,

i look back and find life filled-

 With those small things you do,

 With the little words you say,

 With those small fights we have,

 With those crazy moments we share.

It is the blend of thousands of said and unsaid words.

When i wake up in the morning,

i find myself smiling ,

because i just thought of you...

life's little imperfect,

and so is you and me,

but, perhaps i m loving this life

filled with imperfections...

because if everything had been perfect..

there would not be anyone like you,

and neither one like me....................

Dilemmas!!!

May be this is the very situation,I'm undergoing right now,or may be I'm under it many a times.."DILEMMAS"!!

Perhaps,many of us go through these dilemmas daily..."whether to attend today's lecture...whether to end up watching a movie or reading a novel...or just dozing off.."

RIght now,sitting in the OBMP class...my mind isn't anyway understanding the "MANAGEMENT OF AN ORGANISATION"...Again a dilemma!!!

The 5M's -Man

                 Money

                 Material

                 Machine &

                 Method       seems jst like another crap.

"Man mobilises everything" -an answer to whose superior in the above mentioned 5M's ...

So,does man even mobilises his dilemmas!!!

Cann't we have a method...oops!!...."METHOD" again....to make each one of us get our solutions...

I really dont know why the hell m i writing this...but one thing is for sure..sometimes we ,humans,the greatest of all beings...as we usually term ourself...cann't even understand the deepest of our very own thoughts..ya...ofcourse topping the list is no one else but me...

And to add to it...we have the 1st day of the sem as a full day..nywaz..Thanx God!!it didnt turn out to be one..nd while attending classes today...for the first tym in my life...i felt my 5th sem was a hell better..than the one i m gng to face...i really missed NFET..while trying to pace up wid the frozen FMS...

Anywaz..though i didnt get any conclusion for the dilemmas theory( i'm sure i'vl sumday)...

while writing another piece of crap..one of my dilemmas really vanished...that I'm not a very much "MBA" type person...nd i prefer my core subjects more than this stupid OBMP stuff...nd ya..ofcourse writing too!!!

So..dilemmas are even good sometimes...they give you a thousand options to choose from...obviously

more than half are rejected....

"Any part of time,you don't understand anything,ask me then and there"...said our OBMP lecturer..

and I'm still wondering....wat d hell did I understand till now!!!!!!!!

And the class finished finally..leaving me mingled in my own thoughts......was it that subject or my own thoughts which kept me pre-occupied....nd made me not listen to any of this crap!!

Still....craving for an answer.....still thoughtful...still dazzled on myself......nd yes.....still...confused!!!!

An end to 2009...

These are the last few days of dec...

nd an end to 2009...

Ofcourse an end shows a new journey ..a new turn.

2009 has been a year of shocks and surprises...a few tears..many hopes..

new frndz..nd new ways.

There seemed a tym when i really hav cursed 2009..but as time goes on..things jst got their positive side reflecting on me.

May be it would have nvr been possible without some people whom i really value a lot..SO....jst winding up my 2009 wid a a long list of "Thank you's"to a lot of ppl..who have been dere thick and thin...nd thanking God to lemme have such wonderful people in my life without whom i would have been no where.

And, there is special thanx to one of my best of all frndz..thanx 4 :-

supporting always, listening to my long talks for hours..

tolerating my ultimate frustation..

nd for gettin the original Chitranshi out of me (more optimistic than pessimistic),

for lettin me smile wen evr i m worried..

nd last one for jst saying: "watevr happens i m alwaz dere for you"...

nywayz i was jst too flattered by those words...

perhaps..this list of thank you's wnt evr end...lol.

So,...wid an end to 2009..and a new era of beginning ..wishing everyone a very happy and

prosperous new year.

                  :)

blacklisted two....

Well,i nvr write abt my college life here but,today's incidents are special.

The morning was as usual boring,though i woke up at 7:30am ...still early comparing it to the other days..wen i wake up at 8 or 8:05 instead in a class scheduled at 8:30am.

Watevr,...as usual was gng for an xtra English lab nd wished on a breakfast table..Y dnt Kiradoo sir go for a holiday for a week or so!! nd after reachin college realised if i would have asked for anything else i would have got that too..So,no eng class...wow.

First time in my life went to lib,without my F-4 to study..well..didnt hav much success. Anywayz...thats  a regular phenomenon but the most unexpected was todays Dsp class...yes.."my limelight of this sem-dsp."There are thousands of incident i can tell regarding dsp classes nd their uniqueness nd not a single word would be reffered as sumthng related to study!!

Dsp was as always suckin takin out all the left out brains even...but v managed to save our MBBS degree...modest back bencher's society...thogh appu was missing today,v managed to hav fun as our EC-CD batch is a combo of studious geeks as well as naughty imps including F-4 in the imps category...lolz.Cant control our laughter in the lecture today...

At the end of the lecture...our so called prof,....announced sumthng imp. :-

"Here is an important announcement to b made..Roll no 63.....92,95,98...nd a few more i really cant recall are falling short of attendence".

REactions of khushi nd me...-"hey ,did he say 92nd 95...oye ni yar galti se bol diya hoga"..

"I repeat ...92,95...."...Holy shit!!!wat d hell is he talking abt...pagal ho gya lagta hai..@#%&*()(*&^%$(these signify some words i dnt wanna use here).

ME:excuse me sir ...v cant fall short of attendence ,v r alwaz here only(in the class)......nd background had lods of laughter,..

half d class wonderin hw d hell can this happen.....nd rest of them..."u both should b awarded a certi for this .....".

Cumon man....can bunkin 4 lectures in the whole sem mak ur attendence short...

nd v both kept laughin ....makin Mani go evn more mad than evr......nd suddenly..our dearest mani is caught nd is scolded by her sattu bhaiya.....d one nd only sincere student he will evr hav in his class nd he scolded her..Moron...koi na Mani...jab tak hum hain...tujhe aise baht shocks milenge...so..for mani .."chill dhondhu ,jst chill".

nd v kept laughin....on and on..

OH wow.....wat a day...  "experienced my nd khushi'sname in the short attendence list for the first tym in our lyf...g8 xperience ..nd dat too while attendin all classes,...kewl..."

Surely...a memorable day.....

4nov'09

wed.

Some random thoughts.....

THINKING HIGH.............

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SINKING DEEP............................................

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FIGHTING BY...........

 

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LEARNING NEAT.......

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TRANSFORMING FROM......

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TANTRUMS TO..............

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TRANQUILITY.........

 

thinking high,

sinking deep,

fighting by,

learning neat,

transforming from 

tantrums to tranquility...

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Time:3:45pm    Date:19th oct   venue:on the way to jpr.

Diwali..as popularly known is the festival of lights nd this year, it has enlightened my life even more beautifully.
Kanpur is a leading industrial city but for me it has alwaz been my home town..nd perhaps,somethng more than it.And this city becomes a sudden victim of my mood switch overs.Sometimes,knp becomes the worst place i can evr belong to nd sumtimes ,the very same place can fulfill you with hope , dreams nd desires..
Sometimes,leaving this city becomes too difficult as it was during this journey nd sometimes its the very city i m running from..Sometimes everything becomes technicolor nd so beautiful that evrything around me seems to be happy coz i m happy.

I hav now realised that many things around me are lifeless yet beautiful nd not coz i see them that way but coz of the presence of some people who really make it so..It's sometimes so important to realise the value of a few people whom you love the most nd evn who luv u .When i first entered  knp... was dazzled by the new faces around me..the new ways which were most often forgotten  nd i used to think "Why the hell does it happen with me?" nd you know what i did get an answer ...coz it was this place which grew the best out of me..it made me the person i m ..nd may be not the place but  a few ppl who made frndz wid this unknown face nd made her amongst the many...nd the best part is they still are there..
And, the worst part these days is that i'm suffring from memory disorders.It is like I only recall ppl who r my intimate frndz nd others are completely out of focus..But,seriously speaking ,it doesnt matter much..
Rite now  on my way back to college..i feel as if i m leaving many close ones behind...ofcourse i'm but this time ,i know they were,are nd willl alwaz be wid me..

To end wid ,i m terribly missing a few ppl nd they after reading this will definitely know who they are...
Thankin them all for bearing me whenevr i shout,whenevr i m angry...whenevr i act childish nd for being there alwaz nd lastly ...for being there this Diwali......