An end to 2009...

These are the last few days of dec...

nd an end to 2009...

Ofcourse an end shows a new journey ..a new turn.

2009 has been a year of shocks and surprises...a few tears..many hopes..

new frndz..nd new ways.

There seemed a tym when i really hav cursed 2009..but as time goes on..things jst got their positive side reflecting on me.

May be it would have nvr been possible without some people whom i really value a lot..SO....jst winding up my 2009 wid a a long list of "Thank you's"to a lot of ppl..who have been dere thick and thin...nd thanking God to lemme have such wonderful people in my life without whom i would have been no where.

And, there is special thanx to one of my best of all frndz..thanx 4 :-

supporting always, listening to my long talks for hours..

tolerating my ultimate frustation..

nd for gettin the original Chitranshi out of me (more optimistic than pessimistic),

for lettin me smile wen evr i m worried..

nd last one for jst saying: "watevr happens i m alwaz dere for you"...

nywayz i was jst too flattered by those words...

perhaps..this list of thank you's wnt evr end...lol.

So,...wid an end to 2009..and a new era of beginning ..wishing everyone a very happy and

prosperous new year.

                  :)

blacklisted two....

Well,i nvr write abt my college life here but,today's incidents are special.

The morning was as usual boring,though i woke up at 7:30am ...still early comparing it to the other days..wen i wake up at 8 or 8:05 instead in a class scheduled at 8:30am.

Watevr,...as usual was gng for an xtra English lab nd wished on a breakfast table..Y dnt Kiradoo sir go for a holiday for a week or so!! nd after reachin college realised if i would have asked for anything else i would have got that too..So,no eng class...wow.

First time in my life went to lib,without my F-4 to study..well..didnt hav much success. Anywayz...thats  a regular phenomenon but the most unexpected was todays Dsp class...yes.."my limelight of this sem-dsp."There are thousands of incident i can tell regarding dsp classes nd their uniqueness nd not a single word would be reffered as sumthng related to study!!

Dsp was as always suckin takin out all the left out brains even...but v managed to save our MBBS degree...modest back bencher's society...thogh appu was missing today,v managed to hav fun as our EC-CD batch is a combo of studious geeks as well as naughty imps including F-4 in the imps category...lolz.Cant control our laughter in the lecture today...

At the end of the lecture...our so called prof,....announced sumthng imp. :-

"Here is an important announcement to b made..Roll no 63.....92,95,98...nd a few more i really cant recall are falling short of attendence".

REactions of khushi nd me...-"hey ,did he say 92nd 95...oye ni yar galti se bol diya hoga"..

"I repeat ...92,95...."...Holy shit!!!wat d hell is he talking abt...pagal ho gya lagta hai..@#%&*()(*&^%$(these signify some words i dnt wanna use here).

ME:excuse me sir ...v cant fall short of attendence ,v r alwaz here only(in the class)......nd background had lods of laughter,..

half d class wonderin hw d hell can this happen.....nd rest of them..."u both should b awarded a certi for this .....".

Cumon man....can bunkin 4 lectures in the whole sem mak ur attendence short...

nd v both kept laughin ....makin Mani go evn more mad than evr......nd suddenly..our dearest mani is caught nd is scolded by her sattu bhaiya.....d one nd only sincere student he will evr hav in his class nd he scolded her..Moron...koi na Mani...jab tak hum hain...tujhe aise baht shocks milenge...so..for mani .."chill dhondhu ,jst chill".

nd v kept laughin....on and on..

OH wow.....wat a day...  "experienced my nd khushi'sname in the short attendence list for the first tym in our lyf...g8 xperience ..nd dat too while attendin all classes,...kewl..."

Surely...a memorable day.....

4nov'09

wed.

Some random thoughts.....

THINKING HIGH.............

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SINKING DEEP............................................

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FIGHTING BY...........

 

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LEARNING NEAT.......

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TRANSFORMING FROM......

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TANTRUMS TO..............

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TRANQUILITY.........

 

thinking high,

sinking deep,

fighting by,

learning neat,

transforming from 

tantrums to tranquility...

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Time:3:45pm    Date:19th oct   venue:on the way to jpr.

Diwali..as popularly known is the festival of lights nd this year, it has enlightened my life even more beautifully.
Kanpur is a leading industrial city but for me it has alwaz been my home town..nd perhaps,somethng more than it.And this city becomes a sudden victim of my mood switch overs.Sometimes,knp becomes the worst place i can evr belong to nd sumtimes ,the very same place can fulfill you with hope , dreams nd desires..
Sometimes,leaving this city becomes too difficult as it was during this journey nd sometimes its the very city i m running from..Sometimes everything becomes technicolor nd so beautiful that evrything around me seems to be happy coz i m happy.

I hav now realised that many things around me are lifeless yet beautiful nd not coz i see them that way but coz of the presence of some people who really make it so..It's sometimes so important to realise the value of a few people whom you love the most nd evn who luv u .When i first entered  knp... was dazzled by the new faces around me..the new ways which were most often forgotten  nd i used to think "Why the hell does it happen with me?" nd you know what i did get an answer ...coz it was this place which grew the best out of me..it made me the person i m ..nd may be not the place but  a few ppl who made frndz wid this unknown face nd made her amongst the many...nd the best part is they still are there..
And, the worst part these days is that i'm suffring from memory disorders.It is like I only recall ppl who r my intimate frndz nd others are completely out of focus..But,seriously speaking ,it doesnt matter much..
Rite now  on my way back to college..i feel as if i m leaving many close ones behind...ofcourse i'm but this time ,i know they were,are nd willl alwaz be wid me..

To end wid ,i m terribly missing a few ppl nd they after reading this will definitely know who they are...
Thankin them all for bearing me whenevr i shout,whenevr i m angry...whenevr i act childish nd for being there alwaz nd lastly ...for being there this Diwali......

Just like that....

I really dont know why am i actually writing this and wat actually  m i trying to write....perhaps i cant resist this blog too long..
I have often witnessed the fact that sometimes human beings become so ignorant about things happening around them..that they hardly notice a word of it...It keeps happening with me most of the time.whenever in search of something important..suddenly that very thing vanishes and the next moment its in front of me,...

Leaving alone things,how ignorant are we in terms of our relations and our feelings.HOw often we criticize people,how often we mock at them...how rare we appreciate and the rarest of all is to understand oneself..
Never realised it will be so tough taking decisions,,suffering from dilemmas...
but in the long run,we reach the destination we always want to reach............

Cassiopeia

 Have u evr heard of Cassiopeia..if u have not lemme tell u,Cassiopeia is one of the very beautiful constellation milky way is gifted with.

On this 3oct...when i was partying around with my frndz, i jst looked up at the sky to have a gud look at those brightening stars where i found one of the constellations i had been looking for so long.Sometimes,i guess you never get things when your  heart craves for them,but you definitely witness them  all of a sudden when you expect it to the minimum...Perhaps,these are called miracles and charms of life...gifting you with the pleasure of unexpected yet once desired,gifts.
Next time when you are viewing the night sky..try searching out...who knows a "W" shaped constellation must be right above your head...making the night sky even more beautiful and mesmerising!!!!!!
As it is near the pole star, the constellation Cassiopeia can be seen the whole year from the northern hemisphere, although sometimes upside down.

On the other end of line...

The world around us is developing day by day...at a pace which is unbelievable nd is rather unknown and undiscovered by many.
Well,this one is not for discussing the technological aspects rather to discuss one of the most important nd daily used technology or say the social networking sites.
 
Well,when i first joined orkut it seemed what a waste of time..nd then the same wasted time gradually changed to a great utilisation of time...nd recently i have found out it has again become "a permanent waste of time and energy" nd perhaps, this time it is for a larger time dimension.
Whenever i opened my laptop, the three basic sites google,orkut and facebook along with my gtalk always glittered on my screen...nd i sometimes think is this the only thing my world has collasped to????
And, i never got an answer to it...coz its still the same with a difference that we know the person on the other end of the line, is not necessarily aware of our presence nd thus, its easy to ignore/avoid people...
The best thing the technology has provided today is, the right to get yourself available to a person according to your very own convenience.Who knows  who is at the other end of the line while you are easily talking to him/her about urself!!!!!who knows ????????
Strange but true, isnt it??HAvent u experienced this atleast once in your life??
If havent, dont be depressed,there might be one getting your way in days to come..coz in the recent days i definitely have experienced sumthing like that..lolz.
Dont give me that weird look.Okay,tell me how many times you dont reply your very own frndz and say i was not at desk..
or let someone else reply on your part...or the best one which rather suits my style..being idle all the time and not replying...or another one...blocking half of your gtalk list????Great ideas ...arent they???
Well,these are a few things symbolising our achievements ,developments and advancements showing the inhuman aspect.A few days back i must have supported it as mere our alignment towards the emotionless world..but looking at the brighter part, it definitely gives us a way to charge up..like our use and throws pens...

Perhaps,we are becoming emotionless and technology as we all know is far from emotional front...nd thats why people adapt them...
There are many who have given themselves entirely to this addiction but there are still a few who realise the futility of it and try to freed themselves from the illusionist world they have created around them..
And ,i guess its now than never...
And it makes us realise, internet is a great source of information if properly used but the truth is u nvr come to know who's on the other end.....

Impressions!!!

The master piece,
    the glory revised,
       the unauthorized,
           sources to cherish moments,
                impact made on lyf's,
                   which remains forever even if time flies.

    

Impressions are bounds unlimited,

      letting footprints to shine,

          craving heart with desires emitted,

               making your world as mine.

                                                                                 

                    

Hues of charm,

    words divine,

       you are the one who make everything fine,

         you  came and never left,

           marking another chapter of my life,

             filled with care,

               nd divine love,

                   marking impressions which,

                      time and tide cant deprive.

                                                                        

Keep holding on...

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Keep holding on..
Bcoz.. when  when you need me the most
i will always stand by.

Watching u smile,
 from some miles away,
holding hearts nd holding hands.


Keep holding on..
 so that i never fall,
 love the way i luv,
 so that we never crawl.
 

Is this the way I fly!

i never realise

is this the way i fly

touching the sky

hues,clouds nd the water near by.,.,,

is this the way i fly,..

wings so colourful.

charming enough to deceive,

beauty so divine,

everyone willing to receive.

touching the sky

walking by stars

following my dreams

forever nd evr nd evr................

                                                                           

                          

Waiting for my piece of happiness...

Walking by the streets today,

i saw the flowers blooming,

mesmerising everyone,

by the charm of their beauty.

Walking by the streets today,

I saw the one for me..

guiding my way

underneath the trees.

Following them i reached

a destination rare achieved,

with gloomy heart,

i saw there dying trees.

But still it managed to breathe,

there i saw a little bud,

trying to escape death,

nd it filled me with joy and ecstacy.

Renovating , the bud conveyed to me,

death is not the only reason why life betrays me,

its not bcoz death engulfs you

but bcoz you start believing so..

 That night,i realised

visualising the lonely sky,

if life hasn't end ,

why should i deny.

Sitting there i lay in  deep thoughts,

thinking about the would be miracles,

living lyf ,

waiting for my piece of happiness..

Drop of Materialism

I have just watched another g8 movie tonight named ANTITRUST...on my lappy...

and since there was a whole era of darkness undergoing in my room for the last 2-3 hours..
there occured something wich really took my breathe away..

Me nd my roomie wid their lappy in person surfing net..watching muvies simultaneously...
and suddenly the two laptops collided and i , the one who loves her laptop more than Ashton Kutcher....lost all her senses...
nd wen i reclaimed them...i realised oh God!! how materialistic have we become..
this is not  the first time when i m realising it...but still its a tough job to admit it..

THe fact is like me..everyone knows we have grown as a materialistic but no one including me , myself want to quit this race..nd today, i dont have a concluding note to say..

just that when individual priority superimposes a bunch of people which further leads to we all..we might understand what actually materialism is nd what rights are we giving technology to ruin us.

The question has been raised again and again, but humans have become too deaf to hear it and too dumb to answer it.........Hope to see a new era where dreams dont crush dreams!!!!!

A nice word....Perhaps

I have never felt the same way within the last one month perhaps....perhaps i m happy today....perhaps due to ..an awaited end to september....perhaps on counting days to b back home.....perhaps to meet my little bro..perhaps to be back to my own city...nd perhaps.......nd d list of perhaps just goes on..

While writing this one...i had thought of sumthing ....which i think i have forgotten just a few seconds back..

Anywaz...i m not quiting ...nd while continuing i just wanna myself to know that everything is going to be fine,darling...Life is nt bad...nd perhaps these positive vibes start frm the advent of october..

And lemme tell u that this oct. thing is not a big fuss to be created..its just my sep'09 had been too hard for me to ever forget...as its been worst then i had ever imagined..so i hope to find coming days a bit better...

Life is like those many perhaps i have mentioned above...nd the biggest joke is that those perhaps if dealing with something positive will definitely give me a red signal nd green otherwise...

I always used to like the word "perhaps"...nd was a regular user for it...nd i think i m one still..

"shayad aisa ho jaye...shayad class cancel ho jaye...u never know..perhaps i m going to study from 2morow...".THese bunches of "perhaps" perhaps lay down the very foundation of so many dreams nd hopes...nd dissapointments too..

but,perhaps everything what happens, happens for a reason...nd is a part of the great master plan somewhere or the other..nd i myself have started believing in it when i find that some things which never turned out rite at the time i wanted them to...are God's way of telling me..."JUST WATCH BY AND WAIT FOR THE MIRACLE COMING TO RESCUE YOU"...
hope , it works for everyone...

Finally, i think i have written something idiotic as usual...but still enjoyed writing it a lot... with those continuing series of perhaps...i really sometimes think how could lazy, crazy nd at times,freaky people rather say students,like me could have survived.

AS PER THE RULE I HAVE TO GIVE A FEW ENDING LINES PERHAPS:

perhaps is not the only word to make u smile

to reduce fear

to introduce caRE

to show anxiety'

to start a fight

to criticize

to appreciate

to xpress love

to show care......

perhaps, i care

                      perhaps, if u smile u would have luked bettr

perhaps........nd perhaps.................nd perhaps.........

Nature's Imposing way...

In our day today life...we all face so many incidents that make us feel that the things ahead are going to be good...Omens as we call them..
Here are few:

Perhas its nature's way of saying its a bad day...

Here goes another one...

Isnt this really very pretty...

once u see this one in reality,..there vl b a very beautiful smile on evryone's face.

 

 

 

 

 

Its very obvious that these pics make us smile..but sometimes cant it really be true!!

Evr experienced something like this?????????