Unheard & Unsaid..

The silent attraction,
long conversations,

A peace and joy

which was too influential.

I waited too long to understand,

too long perhaps to subside.

The more I think of not thinking of you,

The task becomes ponderous ,

and there are just thoughts of you.

How I keep wondering,

Where am I heading to??

No idea of destination,

even journey seems insane.

I tried a lot to bring back the original me,

but You changed too much to revert,

This infernal punishment have I chosen for me.

How will I ever be able to make myself believe 

that there is a world beyond those fantasies!!

How i wish there were days when you understood my silence,

How I wish there were moments to be cherised!!

But,well aware of the nihilism in life,

all futile and otiose,

Still there comes the awkwardness of faking up every other thing ,

The smile usually are from the heart,

can be seen by all,

but where should I take those remorse

which I know still exist!!

Deep down I know,

This too shall pass,

returning the normalcy of life,

the innocent smiles and wittiness,

but the present has overpowered the desire of future.
With each passing day,
your effect  seems to lessen,
evanescent impressions.
Was it really worthy of it?
but the questions still in silent eyes says-

How will I ever forget,

Life just made me believe that 

It just deceives!!